It never seems to end

I got a call this morning from Zechriah. He wanted to ask me a question. I called him back. He said that he wasn't aware that Caleb would be there when Rebecca left my mother's house. I put a hault to the conversation to say that I was sorry that mother had put him in the middle of the situation. He called me around 10:30 am. Somewhere between last night and first thing this morning my mother had called to tell him how upset she was with what had happened. What a shame. I explained to him it was not our intention to show up but that Rebecca had too many things to fit them all in Naeemah's car. I also told him that he could give her my number. If she had something to say or had a question that she could come to me instead of putting him in the middle of all of this. Really makes me made that the manipulation continues.

I have to tell you that I am enjoying time with family but I am eager to get back home to my husband and my kids!!! I am eager to leave the drama behind. I haven't written a blog on my own healing in a while. The events of this week are a blessing to be a part of...but the healing is theirs. The steps my sister has taken...I can almost see her crossing a bride and burning it behind her. I know my mother is alone now...but that isn't my fault. I would almost like for her to call me. I'd like to ask her what she thinks would be different now if the things I "accused" her of had not been the truth. What in her life, and the kids lives, would not have happened if Child Protective Services had not found their own evidence and if judge after judge had not weighed the evidence and found her unfit.

All this to say that I am still in the dilema of whether to contact her myself while I am here. I don't know what is best. She probably won't meet with me anyway but would the gesture mean anything? She could never say that I won't speak to her. Well she can and probably will say it but it won't be true. I need advice ladies. I hate to ask for it so quickly but I really want to do the smart thing here. What do you think?