Day 1

I had a whole other post written and then the Internet went out...ahhh technology!

I finally got to see my home town in the light of day. Some changes but basically the same. I went to meet Caleb and we hung out for a few hours and had lunch together. It's been 3 1/2 years since we've seen each other.

Tonight I will go see Rebecca for about 30 min while she is on a break from work and then I will go see a friend at the mall.

All this excitement still leaves me torn in two directions. I love being here in familiar surroundings but I miss my husband and children desperately. I see babies everywhere and want to reach out and grab onto my own kids...somehow.

Here is a new prayer request for you ladies. I was driving around town this morning and got to thinking about my mother...of course. I began to wonder if anyone in her life, present or past, has ever told her the truth...I mean the HARD truth. Dartha, you are abusive...you do not have the right to treat other human beings the way you have...you have pain in your past and you need to own it... I started to feel something similar to compassion and wondered if it was time for me to sit down across from my mother and tell her some things...tell her where she went wrong but point her to the right path. But what is that path? What does she really need to be immersed in complete healing? Pray with me won't you? Pray that God will lead me and let me know if it is time..or if it is not time. I am really at peace either way. Thank you ladies...your prayers are really felt up here...I mean that!!! My love to you all!