(I posted this on our family blog a few weeks ago..thought it had more relevance here!)
Most people know that I love taking pictures...I love having pictures of people that I love, no matter who takes them. To me, a picture captures my emotions. It speaks emotions and feelings that I can't always vioce with words. Taking pictures is a way for me to love. That must be why my favorite things to photograph are my children. We recently had some family pictures taken. I am no pro and I thought it might be time for mommy to be in some pictures with the ones she loves the most! A sweet, talented lady in our church took them for us. She had no idea how much it meant for me to have these done. Eli was a pill, as usual. He wouldn't be my Eli if he wasn't. He was himself, not hiding his distain for having to sit still and produce a smile. What an unbreakable, free spirit. A truly beautiful thing.
It was the pictures of my Maddie that touch a deep, deep place in my heart. I just happened upon a little pink tutu when out shopping one day. The ladies who have sat and listened to me cry and scream out for the losses of my childhood don't need me to explain what a little pink tutu really means to me. My baby is free... She is free from any chance of the pain I have gone through. She is my princess...and she is daddy's princess. Every twirl, every beaded necklace, every sparkly bracelet is freedom...for me too. Now it isn't the "decorations" that I give her. It is the chance to be a little girl. It is the childhood free from worry...free from adult things. It is safety, a mommy to run to...a daddy to dance with her. She can be girly if she wants or she can roll in the mud...doesn't matter to me, as long as she is carefree! As long as she learns to love and treat others in love. She passes love onto the next generation, and they pass it on to the next. I can see God's eyes fill with a little sorrow and a little happiness. This is what he wanted for me...but his Madeline has it all! If my unhappy childhood is what it took for my children to have a happy one...I'd relive it a thousand times...and I have.
Ev, what a lucky couple we are...
Most people know that I love taking pictures...I love having pictures of people that I love, no matter who takes them. To me, a picture captures my emotions. It speaks emotions and feelings that I can't always vioce with words. Taking pictures is a way for me to love. That must be why my favorite things to photograph are my children. We recently had some family pictures taken. I am no pro and I thought it might be time for mommy to be in some pictures with the ones she loves the most! A sweet, talented lady in our church took them for us. She had no idea how much it meant for me to have these done. Eli was a pill, as usual. He wouldn't be my Eli if he wasn't. He was himself, not hiding his distain for having to sit still and produce a smile. What an unbreakable, free spirit. A truly beautiful thing.
It was the pictures of my Maddie that touch a deep, deep place in my heart. I just happened upon a little pink tutu when out shopping one day. The ladies who have sat and listened to me cry and scream out for the losses of my childhood don't need me to explain what a little pink tutu really means to me. My baby is free... She is free from any chance of the pain I have gone through. She is my princess...and she is daddy's princess. Every twirl, every beaded necklace, every sparkly bracelet is freedom...for me too. Now it isn't the "decorations" that I give her. It is the chance to be a little girl. It is the childhood free from worry...free from adult things. It is safety, a mommy to run to...a daddy to dance with her. She can be girly if she wants or she can roll in the mud...doesn't matter to me, as long as she is carefree! As long as she learns to love and treat others in love. She passes love onto the next generation, and they pass it on to the next. I can see God's eyes fill with a little sorrow and a little happiness. This is what he wanted for me...but his Madeline has it all! If my unhappy childhood is what it took for my children to have a happy one...I'd relive it a thousand times...and I have.
Ev, what a lucky couple we are...
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