February 15th

Rebecca gave her 2 weeks notice today at work. What an woman of integrity...instead of leaving in secret she'd rather be and adult! They asked her for an actual date to take her off the schedule, so we decided together that Monday February 15 would work best. I will already be in town, probably by the 13th. The tax return was about $200 more than we expected...a small but useful blessing! I noticed that some airlines have Valentine's Day sales so I might not have to spend 14 hours on a train!!!!! My sister will be safe and on her way to an enormously beautiful healing!

I was reading in Job last night and was struck at the last chapter. God restored to Job new family but obviously not the loved ones he had lost. He would still love and miss the wife and children that had passed away. God's restoration came and Job was blessed but things were not made exactly like they had been before. I would never imagined when I was praying for God to restore my family that it would be only a few years. I also would never have dreamt that God would restore a different family from my own. I get to go and "rescue" my sister and send her off with another sister. It feels lonely now. I know my decision to shed light on the abuse in my home was right and it sent my siblings in all different directions. We may never all be together again. I think of the sacrifice I made...a sacrifice that gave them all new opportunity one way or another...now they go their separate ways. Will this be the feeling I get as Eli drives off to college? I am not in a mourning state of mind. I am proud to see them living lives headed for freedom...but selfishly I want them here with me. It can't be that way. I am happy too. Things are being restored and made right. The scars are there but are slowly fading as new life is brought to the surface. Who knows, by Christmas we could be sharing our tree with a few of the Quinn family...a dream of mine...another restoration! Two and a half weeks I have to prepare to take Rebecca and then let her go. God thank you for you love...and your restoration.