I felt like such a heel after my last post. In the 2 days that followed I had a few people come to me for prayer over some SERIOUS losses. Here I was whining about money/job/and a damn TV!!! Ugh, the shame just swept over me. I felt so guilty for overlooking what I have and not thinking it was enough.
That is often how it goes for me...complain about something then, right after I open my mouth, a solution or relief arrives. Just this weekend I received 4 orders totalling our grocery budget! And another big one yesterday. Monday I was called in to substitute teach at the preschool in my church. It isn't big money by any means...but I didn't ask for that, I asked (well, actually I begged) to be taken care of. Isn't all this "care" disguised by working from my home (mostly) and being able to stay with my daughter and get my son off the bus after school?? I am constantly stuffing the reminder of my student loan coming due for payments in July...THAT IS 6 MONTHS AWAY!!!! Who cares! I continue to look for a full time job but I look at every day I get to stay home with Madeline is a gift...and to be working from home and earning a little extra money...pure CARE!!
I thank you all for praying. Your love over me and my family is...a blessed gift. Please forgive me for whining...I so often cannot look past what I want and don't have for what is right in front of me!!!
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